I can't explain it . It's sort of like a blue funk has come
over me lately. Nothing I can put my finger on. This year
started out like gangbusters. Fishing , camping, family fun
and all of the sudden .. poof .. It's like everything I do ends
up being a chore. I guess the fact that it has rained something
like nineteen out of the last twenty one days may have something
to do with it but I don't think that's the entire problem. It's more
a state of mind I think. When a person get's a notion in his head
that it's going to be a rotten day I think they sort of work to make
it happen. And lately I've been pretty successful at it. Fishing
days have become monsoon survival days, my pleasant little
walks in the woods have become forced marches because of time
restraints for one reason or another and on the rare dry days it
almost always grass cutting day at one of the compounds. I'm hoping
that by writing this all down it will help. Maybe I will go back and read it
later in the week and realize just how petty I am being and slap myself
up side the head and straighten up.
It will just be me and the dogs this weekend so I'm going to pour myself
into a home improvement project and hopefully all will go well and build
up my self esteem and give a new outlook. If not .. well there's a week long
music festival the following week that will either make or break me. I'm
hoping for the better of the two lol
However as I write this I just got a red alert storm warning from the weather
station on my phone and the wind and rain just started again. Batten down the
hatches !
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