Selfish thoughts....

     I am not a selfish man by nature.  Today is different.
Today is inauguration day.  Most know my feelings on the
subject so I don't feel the need to express them here.
    Today as people around the nation watch as 'our'
new leader (yes I said our) takes the oath of office of the
greatest Nation in the world.   I will quietly slip away with
my pack and slither slowly into the woods.  I am not
boycotting the event or anything.  Heck I never watched
the last fifty seven gala events either.  But this one in
particular I simply don't have the stomach for.  This one
is different for me because it stirs up feelings that I have
never felt before and I dislike these feelings greatly.  In
the past I disagreed with polices of certain candidates
but I always felt that when push came to shove things
would be worked out fairly for the good of the country.
I don't feel that is the case   This time as I watch the
maneuvering and construction of a My way or the Highway
type of government I lose hope.  I've prayed for understanding
I've prayed for their guidance and I prayed for their success
   But today I'll be selfish.. I'll pray for myself.  I'll pray that
I can regain the faith I have lost in our system, in our leaders
and people in general.   I've seen a lot of what I considered
great friends that I worked with for years turn in to hateful
name calling people and I pray that I never sink to that level.
   So today I'll walk in silence, build a small fire brew some
coffee and pray that I can make my world right .. I've come
to realize lately that the rest of the world seems to be content
living with this hate and bickering so since I can't seem to
convince them I guess I simply have to work on saving myself.
To many this will look like I'm giving up and to me It makes me
feel as if I failed but I see no other option.. I can not participate
anymore.    In a nutshell I guess what i'm saying is When you
yourself start to feel hate it's time to stop, look around at what's
causing it, jump in a lifeboat and get away from it.   There will
be room in my lifeboat for anyone who wants to join eventually.
But for now I think I need to sail alone for a bit !