Humor abuse...

  With the recent suicide of Robin Williams a lot
of the media coverage has been about depression
and the fact that people tend to cover their feelings
up with humor.  Since my life has pretty much
been a stand-up comedy routine I have been paying
a good bit of attention to some of the discussions.
  Could It be ?  Don't you think one would know ?
Oh sure, I have down times .. everybody does.  And
then there's the dreams .. again.. normal . right ? 
Maybe I'm trying to fool my inner self.  Na.. I'm too
sharp for that.  I'd never fool me.. I'm too sharp.
Although I do sometimes question myself as to when
is enough , enough when it comes to humor.  But
that would be a good thing when you realize your
doing it .. right ?  Crap !!  one more thing to worry
about,  depression without even knowing I'm depressed.
Starting tomorrow I'm going to hide all my guns, knives
ropes and such just in case.  Wait .  That won't work,
I'll know where I hid them.  Double crap !  I guess
I'll just have to let my inner demons fight it out among
themselves.  Don't get me wrong, I think I'm ok but just
in case I'm going to set myself a six joke a day limit
and try and discuss anything that comes along and makes
me sad with anyone that will listen.
  Seriously though, my heart goes out to those who are
fighting this unseen demon.  As I said,  There have been
times in my life when humor has gotten me through some
really tough times.  But then everybody needs a crutch
now and then.  I hope by the grace of God that I am
able to use that crutch without becoming too dependent
on it.   R.I.P. Robin, Your problems are finally over.