'bout to be famous .......

      Over the years many people have become famous for
developing diets that took the world by storm, inspired books
and TV shows and such.  I am about to embark on that journey
at least in my own mind.  Chances are I won't become famous.
Chances are nobody will write a book.  Chances are no famous
producers will knock on my door wanting to do a TV series
about me.  In fact .. chances are I may abandon this idea all
together by dinner time tonight but as of right now I know for
a fact something must be done and I am the only one that can
do it.
     This started some time ago and has progressed steadily over
time.  Foods that I normally loved started to lose their appeal.
Dishes that I once craved simply tasted bland.  Even colas and
coffee became just so-so.  At first I blamed it on medications,
then an ongoing sinus problem.  Since I have all but lost my
sense of smell I naturally figured that had contributed to the
changes in my taste also.  The problem with this is although I
lost the enjoyment of a good meal It never changed my desire
to partake in a good meal.  Having always been an 'over cooker'
and not being a wasteful person I of course eat more than I
should.  That has pretty much come to a head.  I find that when
I eat I feel terrible.  Maybe it's that I eat too much .. maybe it's
that I eat the wrong things but whatever it is it is a terrible feeling.
I think studying my new found hobby of 18th century cooking
I'm finding that I feel I would be better off basically eating for
survival other than pleasure.  Don't get me wrong I'm not going
to live on bugs and grasses.  What I am talking about is what we
are told to do all of our lives.   Small portioned multiple meals
of basic nutritional foods.  (novel idea 'eh?)  Although my weight
has remained the same I find myself eating things that I know I
shouldn't simply out of boredom.  I could justify this if I was
enjoying  these snacks but the truth is I not only don't enjoy them
they make me feel guilty and nauseous afterwards.  Maybe I have
some kind of death wish. lol  (note to self.. call therapist)  In any
case , starting tomorrow I am going to attempt a new chapter in
my Sick of being sick diet plan.  I think I like the feeling of hunger
more than the way I feel daily eating as I do.
     So if you run into me on the street and I seem a bit  extra crabby
or I try to steal the sucker your eating, cut me a little slack .  It will be
a transition period for me .  It may work .. It may not .. no promises
but just the same I thought I'd post this blog so I would have something
to look back on the day I decided to try.  After all that is all we can do.