I'm still here !!!!!!    I have yet to figure out why  .. but I'm still here.

When I first started this blog years ago I ask myself why a guy with nothing to say

and no 'real' friends that really cared about my shenanigans would choose to write a 

blog.  My answer was to keep a written record of certain things that happen in my 

life that I may want to look back on and remember.  Wow was I mistaken !

    Fast forward it is more of a list of mistakes I have made that I would be better off

forgetting.  This blog makes that almost impossible.  I do go back and re-read a lot of

my posts from time to time just to reminisce but I seldom get any enjoyment out of it !

     Recently I have been going through a truly rough patch.   Mentally and physically

I've had some struggles =.  Mostly self induced but tough just the same.   Way too much hate in the world.. complete lack of will power and even a bit of outgoing anger which I always prided myself in controlling.  I've been a hot mess.   

     Recent setbacks have made me aware of some of these shortcomings and I'm going to

do my best to correct them....  As they say.. make the best of a bad situation.  Example..

I just had a very large cyst removed from the back of my neck and although the scar will

probably be unsightly I decided it will look like a change purse that I can carry all of my

fondest memories in for quicker access.  (Don't worry I'm still pretty  lol)    While recuperating I needed something to do so I crashed my lawn tractor and got pinned under it for a time.  This gave me time to reflect on different ways to mow the lawn.. Or at least the hill behind the house.  As a bonus my now purple cut up leg took my mind off of my sore neck... so it was a win win...

PS) Don't try this at home...