First off I need to call off my request for the making of an 'epic bad week' a couple of posts back. We have stretched it just a bit too far. Enough already. My dogs getting Lyme disease and one of my best train buddies in the hospital on a ventilator with covid pushed it over the top.. Dogs are responding well to meds but still praying daily for my friend.
I went against my better judgment today and commented on a post from a You Tube friend. He was making comments about stupid democrats pushing masks and shutdowns and I guess it just hit me at the wrong time after getting off the phone with my friends wife. I should have learned in the past that it is best to keep ones mouth shut but sometimes that just isn't possible.
What I have learned is that people cannot accept opposition. They have taken the approach much like our 'past' president and decided to surround themselves with like minded people that agree with their agenda. After four years of surrounding himself in rallies and such with his 'base' Mr. Trump has taught his people well.. Shut out all opposition and only engage with like minded people.. It's safer that way. All the while calling the left snowflakes and sheep as they herd into rallies to follow their fearless leader's lies and misinformation. Pretty harsh you say ? Yes I agree but I am now at the point where If I am going to lose friends over this I am going to at least give them a reason to hate me. Because hating me simply because we disagree is truly pointless. I'm pretty sure the party that spurred this isn't aware of this blog so this is more for my benefit than his. The only reason to post this is for my future reference. I don't want to forget how low I felt today and someday I may have to look back on this to remember. I always brag about how I remember the good times in my life but I have a tendency to glaze over the bad memories. Having a written reminder will clear that up for me.
Yes I'm lashing out a bit today but hopefully this too will pass. Today I took a long ride to nowhere in particular just to clear my head. It was cold but sunny with a little bit of snow flurries so it was a perfect day to just ride and think. I honestly couldn't tell you where I went but I do know it was on roads I hadn't traveled in years if ever. I even lit up a cigarette, something I haven't done in a good while. And yes I still hate the taste and despise the horrid smell so there is no chance of revisiting that era again. I think I just wanted to do something bad to punish myself for allowing some of these thoughts into my head. #imnothappywithme
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