You.......

   Who are you ?  Are you happy with who you are?
What would you change about yourself?  Do you ever
think you'd like to run away and be someone else?
Tough questions'eh?  I often ask myself questions like
this fully knowing that I'm not going to like my answers.
Happy may be a strong word in my case.  Content may
be a better choice.  I'm not sure I know what happy really
feels like.  I know what unhappy feels like and I know
that that is not how I feel, but I'm not sure about happy.
I think to be happy one would have to feel that they have
everything they need and that life was just one big bowl
of cherries.  Praise God that some people fit into that
category.   Me I'm somewhere in the middle.  Quite content
with what I have and who I have become yet I still
question what is out there that I've missed.  I keep thinking
there are things I've missed on my path through life.  Maybe
they're unimportant, maybe they would have been earth
shattering.  I'll never know.  I've brushed a couple friends
aside that I wish I hadn't and now they've passed so that can
never be rectified.  And yes I've thought how great it would
be to just start over somewhere knowing what I know now and
lead a totally different life.  However I would never want to
discard the life I have built or the memories I have created.  I
guess contentment isn't so bad after all.  I think everyone has
doubts at times and these dreary rainy days seem to make ones
mind wander a bit.   If I could pick and choose segments of my
life to change I surely would, but not my life as a whole.  Who
knows .. maybe total happiness still lies ahead.  You never know
the final score till the games over......      #batter-up