rewind.....

       Tonight I spent a little time looking back on how
my life has changed these past few years and I have to
say not too many of the changes are favorable.  Not that
I question what my creator has planned for me but I
sometimes wonder just what the future holds.
       We all grow older.  We all dread it.  But when one
considers the alternative it's actually a privilege !  I consider
myself very blessed to be able to do all the things I am able
to do.  When I realize how many people in this world never
had the health and means that I have had and still enjoy I am
humbled.  That being said, along with this honor comes
limitations.  These present themselves on a daily basis and
force changes in our lives that we sometimes dread.
        Fishing was always a passion of mine.  I have been in
one Bass club or another for as long as I can remember.  Until
this year.  This is the first year in probably forty years that I
never renewed my membership.  Not because of health reasons
but simply because I no longer want to spend ten hour days on
the water anymore.  There are men in their eighties still fishing
tournaments in our club and thank God they still have the passion
I'm sure they have a lot more aches and pains than I do out there
in the boat but their passion for the sport pushes them through it.
Me?   Not so much.. I love to fish but I refuse to force myself to
stay out and be uncomfortable simply to win a tournament.
I was always one of the most competitive guys out there.  Any
weather.. any conditions,  cast till the gun fires... not any more.
Tonight I found a couple old trophies I had saved while looking
for something in storage.  In a recent clean-up I threw out several
large boxes of trophies or dust collectors as I later found out.  I
had always intended to set them all over my boat and take a photo
That never happened so I guess I'll have to rely on my memory to
pump up my ego when I need a boost...lol   Another era ended.

     I know this post doesn't mean much to anyone who reads it except
me.  But when I go back in a year and re-read all my old posts and
see how I was sitting here feeling sorry for myself. Maybe I'll find that
I'm in a happier frame of mind then and I'll have something to compare
my newfound joy with.  Then I can tell myself  "See you were worrying
about nothing"   ..............

Completely off subject but....  I heard a country song tonight that had a
line that I really liked.  It reminded me of the way this world seems to be
heading.    It's a line from Kenny Chesney's new song  We won't be happy
till we're rich and miserable

https://youtu.be/zCdJyZUKJyM