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        I am now totally confused !  I no longer know how I feel
about anything at all.   I'm confused about the direction this country
is going in .  I'm confused about moral values and why this world
has chosen to abandon them.  I have no idea who to believe.  I am
completely confused about people I thought I knew making truly
vulgar and mean remarks to others over things neither of them have
any control over.  I am just in a world of 'white noise'

Things I do know.....

We will make it past this...
Most of the things we worry about won't effect us directly....
We will never change a person's mind by arguing. 
Though it may hurt, We can't control other people's anger and viviousness

It is a very difficult time for me .  I know that to sit back and let the
things that I disagree with happen is wrong.  But I haven't the  strength
to beat down brick walls when I know the fight is futile.   I have never
seen  lines drawn so deeply in the sand as they are with issues today. 
Maybe I just never paid attention  before.   In any case I now and then
slip and start paying attention and after pounding my head on the wall
for a few days I come to my senses and realize that nothing has changed
and likely never will.  I know the opposition is hoping that the other side
just gives up and clears their path.  Well they will get their way, but only
for a short while.  Once again I have to clear my head and bring my blood
back down from a boil to a simmer.  But I can't stay disengaged for long.
It really is too important to me.